DATED: ❤July 31, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY: A decision made
10:33 PM
And so at the end of the day, I realised that our friendship isn't worth that much afterall.
You've changed.
Changed to a person whom I no longer would like to know anymore.
I've willingly given up every single hope that I have pinned on you.
I guess you ain't someone worth me putting in so much.

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DATED: ❤May 21, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY: Ambiguous
10:12 PM
A constant unrelenting wave of emotions.

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DATED: ❤May 15, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY:
10:31 PM
I was badly affected by certain things at work.
Sometimes it really sets me thinking that when you know that your competitor is strong, you will definitely feel stress.
When you know that your rank isn't as high as others, you will be submissive.

I know that working life is like that.
But when I see the way of how someone can treat a pregnant lady like this, that whole incident really disturbs me a lot.

For me, I won't like crying at work.
I won't appear to be weak too.
I know sometimes I'm just so afraid of so many things, but I hate appearing to be weak in front of others.
Not that I enjoy being fierce and all, but I do know that at work, if I appear like this, people will definitely climb to the top of my head and take advantage of me. Much more, I know very well that I can only depend on myself and not anyone.
I won't like to see such things happening on myself.
As much as I hate faking a smile, talking to someone whom I dislike, I still got to bear with it.
Not that I'm fake, but I just have to do it for the sake of doing it.
Working life is just so practical.

People are pouring out their unhappiness at work to me.
I wanted to help, but I know I can't be much help to them except to listen.
I don't know why but I feel really affected when I know the situation they are in.
Maybe I shouldn't be a counsellor in my entire life.
Because I'm just someone who will be affected by other people easily.
Perhaps, I'm way too emotional.

To me, my biggest weakness is being too emotional.

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DATED: ❤April 15, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY: Themeless
9:46 PM
Came across an incident which happened today and it really sets me thinking what kind of person exactly you are. Perhaps, I should say I've failed to know you well. I don't know which set of words are most suitable to describe you. Should I say you are selfish? Or should I say is because that you are not meticulous enough? It might seems nothing to you, but it disturbs me a lot. You've told me before that I'm a selfish person. What makes you think you are not? If this were to happen last time, I would have been greatly disappointed by your actions. But now, I don't see any reason why should I. Because I've know too well that you are self centered and you've never exactly put yourself in someone's shoes and think. And you've never accepted comments from people, and you are the one who is always commenting. You are always right, and even if you have done wrong, you would have plenty of reasons to support yourself. In the past, I would have cried and I'll be kept bothering by it. However now, I guess all these don't really make a difference to me now, I'm so numb to it and I can't be bothered to say. Because I know whatever I've said, it's plain useless and it will just cause unnecessary arguments which makes me so tiring and all.

And now, I would choose to stay cool as things happen. Because I know at the end of the day, I can only depend on myself on everything. No point getting pissed off by people and all. I got to stay strong and positive in order to achieve what I want to achieve. So many things have happened all these while.
I've learnt to take things easy and it made me realised that the closest person doesn't necessary have to be the one who understands you. The one who understands you doesn't neccessary have to be the one whom you have been pouring out to, it just got to be someone who knows you more than what you have said.

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DATED: ❤April 10, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY: Stupid or Dumb? Stupid & Dumb?
8:30 PM
I just need a long break from everything.
Hopefully, I can just get away from here and take a long break.

Some things happened that made me feel so upset.
It's either I'm too stupid or I'm simply too dumb to voice out my unhappiness.

I just hate bothering people with my unhappiness because I wouldn't know whether they understand, how would they think..
I would prefer to face things alone.
Afterall, no one understand yourself more than anyone.
I really hate all these things happening so often when I'm already so tired, on the verge of breaking down and simply just struggling to hold on to my school,work and everything and look on a brighter side.
And when I'm so tired, who can I actually talk this to..
Perhaps, everything which happen are just meant to make me a stronger person.

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DATED: ❤January 23, 2008

TITLE OF THE DAY: It's hard to build happiness between one another
10:03 PM
Why is it so hard to get support from someone? What is that so difficult? I know I'm doing the right thing. I don't see the reason why it's wrong to be ambitious. Well, of course I'm not Hitler whereby I'm overly ambitious to the extend of killing people. Why is everything so tough?

It's always hard to please someone. Moreover, I'm not doing any wrong things or hurt against anyone. I'm just pursuing what I want. Why can't people understand? Why is it that even when I'm leading my life away, I still have to please people? Why can't they please me by encouraging me, in terms of moral support? I know things are especially getting tougher in recent years.

It's hard to please people. If you please someone, you might hurt yourself in the end. But if you don't, you'll get misunderstood. Somehow or rather, I would choose to be isolated from them. Self centered and selfish people can be seen around everywhere. They only care about themselves without sparing a thought for others. Things might seem as good as it be, but when trouble comes, they just cast you aside without throwing a life saving jacket to you. How come human beings are so scary? Worst, some people just use despicable methods in order to achieve what they want.

How come human beings can't be honest to themselves as well as others too? I would rather choose to befriend someone who is straightforward in their words rather than those who beat around the bushes, saying plenty of god-knows-what-thing to hint you. Aren't they being so fake? I simply like people who speak their mind. You can be nice, but you don't fake to be nice because people can easily see through you.


Well, whatever's on the peripheral is ostensible. Things change, people do change too.

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